I’m finding tonight’s post hard, imaginary people who read my blog. After nearly and I giving up on anything and everything earlier this week, I’m trying to make sure I still stay in the swing of things, and keep up my momentum. But while I don’t ever have trouble sitting down to write posts for Christian’s Desk, I always struggle when it comes time to bang something out for this blog. I still love reading, obvi, and still want to gush about what I’m reading all the time, so that isn’t so much the problem. I’m just having trouble writing about reading – I don’t know what to say or how to say it. I feel like I’m just not sure what direction this blog should go. There are a few things I could be doing, based on other blogs I read or simple common sense, but I don’t really like any of them, for reasons:
- Most book blogs I read (aka creep) on are heavy on the reviews, and obviously I don’t get early copies of books to review. I don’t know how to go about starting that path, but even if I did, I don’t know if I’d want to pursue it seriously. I’m not sure why – scared, maybe? Perhaps.
- I could, obviously, write simple reactions to what I’m reading, but a) I’m reading much more slowly now than I used to due to this thing called “being-a-grown-up” that I got tricked into and so it would literally be five – ten posts PER BOOK because that’s how slowly I’m reading AND OMG I HATE IT and b) I’m a fucking hardcore rereader so that would give me nothing to post when I decide it’s time to read Harry Potter for the 1007987th time.
- I also have a tendency to read while I’m at work or out – waiting for friends at a restaurant, for example – which means that if I do have an interesting thought about a book or character (omg why is Cate Tully so annoying? Anyone?) it’s usually lost or foggy by the time I get home to write. So a natural solution would be to write down the damn thoughts in a notebook and pull it out when I get home and it’s time to write, but I’ve somehow gotten out of the habit of carrying a notebook with me (??)
My Christian’s Desk blog I feel I have much more freedom with, in that it’s a writing blog so fucking anything I want to write about counts – I can write about writing, or about the pretty leaves outside my apartment, or how my 100lb lab thinks he’s a lapdog, and it’s all cool cause it’s a goddamn writing blog and it’s all writing so eff off. Wow, that got defensive quickly. Anywho, the point is that I feel I absolutely must write about books in this blog, and sometimes I feel like I’m effing that up simply because I haven’t had as much time to read as I usually like lately.