Frustration

arielI’m finding tonight’s post hard, imaginary people who read my blog.  After nearly and I giving up on anything and everything earlier this week, I’m trying to make sure I still stay in the swing of things, and keep up my momentum.  But while I don’t ever have trouble sitting down to write posts for Christian’s Desk, I always struggle when it comes time to bang something out for this blog.   I still love reading, obvi, and still want to gush about what I’m reading all the time, so that isn’t so much the problem.  I’m just having trouble writing about reading – I don’t know what to say or how to say it.  I feel like I’m just not sure what direction this blog should go.  There are a few things I could be doing, based on other blogs I read or simple common sense, but I don’t really like any of them, for reasons:

  • Most book blogs I read (aka creep) on are heavy on the reviews, and obviously I don’t get early copies of books to review.  I don’t know how to go about starting that path, but even if I did, I don’t know if I’d want to pursue it seriously.  I’m not sure why – scared, maybe?  Perhaps.
  • I could, obviously, write simple reactions to what I’m reading, but a) I’m reading much more slowly now than I used to due to this thing called “being-a-grown-up” that I got tricked into and so it would literally be five – ten posts PER BOOK because that’s how slowly I’m reading AND OMG I HATE IT and b) I’m a fucking hardcore rereader so that would give me nothing to post when I decide it’s time to read Harry Potter for the 1007987th time.
  • I also have a tendency to read while I’m at work or out – waiting for friends at a restaurant, for example – which means that if I do have an interesting thought about a book or character (omg why is Cate Tully so annoying?  Anyone?) it’s usually lost or foggy by the time I get home to write.  So a natural solution would be to write down the damn thoughts in a notebook and pull it out when I get home and it’s time to write, but I’ve somehow gotten out of the habit of carrying a notebook with me (??)

My Christian’s Desk blog I feel I have much more freedom with, in that it’s a writing blog so fucking anything I want to write about counts – I can write about writing, or about the pretty leaves outside my apartment, or how my 100lb lab thinks he’s a lapdog, and it’s all cool cause it’s a goddamn writing blog and it’s all writing so eff off.  Wow, that got defensive quickly.  Anywho, the point is that I feel I absolutely must write about books in this blog, and sometimes I feel like I’m effing that up simply because I haven’t had as much time to read as I usually like lately.

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  1. You have your own way of doing things… Plus I feel that your blog is more of a conversation about books than a blog with staple reviews. It has more life in it, anyway, if you do want to review books, you could just try doing what you’ve said up there and see how it goes 🙂

    Cate Tully, I know!!!

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